just gotta say it

Before you say try harder to fit it, spend more time at the house, try clubs. Ive done all that abd im so exsauted from just trying

Please consider checking out the counseling available to you through the school, or an outside source. It is perfectly normal to feel this way when you go away to school, and there is absolutely no shame in seeking out someone to talk to.

I felt the same way when I was a freshman, and talking to a counselor was the best thing that I could possibly have done. I'm a sophomore now, and things are so much better for me now.

Maybe it won't be the super cure that it was for me, but it's a viable option, and there's no harm in trying it.

You have come to an anonymous site for a reason. Either you are frustrated with expectations that haven’t been met or stresses from family that you perceive are coming. It might be good for you to meet with a counselor to discuss your unhappiness. What you are feeling might be temporary and will improve with having someone to talk to or maybe a whole change of venue ( looking into another program or university) would be a better fit for your personal growth. I think you need to find someone who is on your side during this time. Best wishes.

I strongly, strongly recommend you try the student counseling services here. I felt so disconnected from everything my freshmen year even though on paper I should have been the happiest person on campus. My family life was rough too and I was hoping college would be my escape from it all, but the stress of school and not knowing anyone just made it all snowball. I was so depressed and it kept me from enjoying anything or forming real bonds with anyone. Definitely don't write off your sorority yet even though it doesn't feel right now, because once I was able to go to therapy and get on an anti-depressant I was so happy I had that group of friends to finally enjoy. Eventually I opened up to a couple of girls about it and to my surprise I was not the only that felt that way. My now best friend and I bonded over her depression issues when she was in high school and she helped me a lot. I hope you can get the help you need and start to feel at home here :)

Staying in your sorority might actually do more harm than good if you genuinely don’t like Greek life. All the mandatory things you have to do will take time away from doing things you actually enjoy, assuming you don’t like your sorority. Try finding something that you enjoy doing (volunteering at an animal shelter, playing a sport, etc) despite what many Greek members believe some people are happier as independents