Need advice. Drop or stick w it

I'm really considering dropping my sorority just because I know what perception other people may have of it. I know this because I had the exact same one before joining. I thought I did everything right during recruitment last year and had so many rec letters and legacies in my family that I didn't even get invited to the house of (not even my mom's). I am extremely jaded from this and have the biggest chip on my shoulder & withdrew from the process, but then decided to accept a snap bid. I've made the best friends ever and my PC is full of really sweet and undeniably beautiful girls. However! Literally want to throw up from anxiety when I think about my sorority. I think I only feel this way bc like 15 girls from my hometown who also rushed at UGA are in "good" sororities and I grew up with them but didn't have the same outcome. It gets really hard to keep telling myself that I just slipped through the cracks. Having someone ask what sorority you're in and then say "I've never heard of that" actually makes me regret ever accepting the bid and wishing I had just rushed as a sophomore. I would hate to not be in a sorority since I obviously can't join another, but it just sucks because as bad as it sounds, I never even considered joining the one I'm in now as a possibility for me. Really not sure if I should stick with it since I do love my PC, but every day it feels like I have to force myself to be proud of my letters and that I belong somewhere else