Being Bouse Is Embarrassing

i’m in a lower tier sorority and it feels dumb to be bothered by this but i lowkey am… it drives me crazy to see certain people working hard to improve our reputation and the girls that are the reason we’re at the bottom don’t care and just make us look worse at events and on socials. it’s like half of us care and the other half are getting us dragged through the mud. recruitment was honestly such a bad time for me and i’m really wishing that i would’ve dropped instead of ending up in a bottom house where i feel judged and am embarrassed to tell people which sorority i’m in. it just sucks because i want the sorority experience so bad but my chapter has awful socials/frat relations and the sisterhood isn’t even close because so many people hang out in groups outside of greek life and i can’t even rush a different sorority because i’ve already been initiated.