does anyone else feel like they just “don’t belong”?

Im going to be transparent even though I’ll probably be trolled for bringing this up but does anyone else feel like they just don’t belong in their sorority?

I have made a few friends but nothing more than surface level. Not even my big really talks to me despite my efforts other than a passing “hi.” Ive been part of group chats and try to interact but it just seems like Im overlooked. It feels like freshman year was the peak with swaps, being showered with gifts, etc but once that year was over it was like everyone just immediately went back to their respective cliques and aren’t very willing to let new people in. There’s been internal drama and the “fun-ness” has just died down a lot.

Im going into my junior year and debating dropping because at this point I feel like the house is just a meal plan for me now since I get nothing out of it other than food, the occasional date party, and having to go to mandatory meetings.

I don’t think it’s my specific sorority per se, like I don’t know if anything would be different if I went to another sorority. But maybe I just don’t fit the culture and am now realizing that. Im pretty shy and joined a sorority because Im out of state looking for new friendships and I was just pulled into the idea of being a part of a “sisterhood.”

Anyways idk why Im writing this other than just wondering if Im the only one who feels like this. :/